It could have been written for me.

I have not taken many pictures over the last week because the garden has been so quiet there really has not been a lot to photograph. We think the black cat and the tabby cat are to blame for a lot of it. The black cat was seen jumping over the fence too close to one of the baby squirrels not to have caught it. There has only been one baby in the garden since and mum.

I did manage one picture however a very colourful

Peacock Butterfly.

The butterfly landed on the old wall at the bottom of the garden so I could not resist taking the shot.

I have had a tooth removed and I was due to go back to the dentist tomorrow to have a false one added to my already existing false ones on a plate. However I have lost yet another filling so I am hoping instead of messing about she will just pull that one as well. I am guessing the problems with my teeth are somehow connected to my being low in iron and vitamin D. Or maybe all the tablets I take or it could be the menopause. Or maybe it could be connected to some of the other problems I have! Who knows?

I have been referred to a hospital in Leeds to see a consultant for a new problem, is this the start of a new round of hospital visits. At least the appointment has been quick in coming, next week, so lets see what happens then.

Lynsey found a written piece on the internet that sums up how I feel most days.

I DON’T LOOK SICK

I don’t look sick, but my legs often feel like wet spaghetti and will go numb and give out on me without warning.

I don’t look sick, but I live with an intense deep exhaustion that makes every movement feel like I’m trying to move at the bottom of the ocean

I don’t look sick, but I suffer from an extremely sensitive heat intolerance that makes me feel light headed,ill,faint even in what feels like normal room temperature to you.

I don’t look sick, but my nerves often give me “phantom itches” that make me scratch myself raw an itch that doesn’t actually exist.

I don’t look sick, but inside my bones often feel like some one is using a jackhammer on them, especially during a change in the weather.

I don’t look sick, but if anything even something little stresses me out or worries me, my body rebels and symptoms flare up just for the fun of it.

I don’t look sick, but it’s extremely difficult for me to concentrate on anything and as a result my memory suffers drastically.

I don’t look sick, but the simplest tasks can take me 5 times longer and take 5 times as much energy to finish than a “normal” person

I don’t look sick, but you’ll never know the struggle beneath the surface.

I cannot read the name on the bottom of the piece of writing but I could not have written it better myself, people look at me and people like me and because we don't look sick or ill in any way they think we are ok.

 However people need to take into account that there are thousands of people out there that look ok, but maybe they are not, so just think before you speak or accuse somebody of being a  benefit cheat things are not always how they seem.

I have to re-apply for my DLA (no it will be PIP now)soon and I just know I will have to fight for it. 

I have been trying to get my disabled bus pass renewed  for the last 8 weeks, it expired yesterday and I still have not received a new one. 

Oh well C'est la vie

Until the next time...